Today I was reminded of precisely how I manage to summon the inner strength to pass up the donuts, ice cream, potato chips, and other delectable goodies that others consume without a care in the world.
Day one of my re-commitment to Weight Watchers and 40-pound weight loss goal, and I’m feeling great. For two months I’ve done nothing but shovel Christmas cookies down my throat, but today, January 4th, 2010, I enjoyed whole grains, fruits and veggies, water, and lean protein. I blasted through 500 calories at the gym. Heck, I even took a multivitamin.
I know it’s just one day and, realistically, I have no grounds to start tooting my own horn just yet…but for someone who went from being a sluggish 250+ pound, depressed woman to a quasi-athlete who runs intervals on the treadmill, it’s a really big deal when the fit person inside of me gets the chance to shine through.
Tonight, I feel like me again. I’m not holed up in my room with the box of chocolate truffles my co-worker gave me last month. The incessant “but it’s the holidays” nibbling I’ve been doing since Halloween is finally over. I’ll be dealing with some extra spillage over the waistband of my jeans for weeks, but right now, I am once again in control.
I’ve been bingeing for two months, and yet it took me all of two hours to realize that all the yummy holiday goodies in the world are not worth the way I feel right now. When I’m not giving in to that ever-present urge to stuff my face, I feel in complete control of my body, my mind, and my life. Food does not overpower me.
One day at a time.
